Author Archives: Maoaaaaaa

As I was trying to remember the name of this life hack blog he once sent me, I referred back to our whatsapp chats. To my surprise, I had no inclination to read anything I’ve sent him or he has sent me. I went directly to the links section, had a glance at his alluringContinue reading “How do I feel”

I was ironing my clothes. Alone in the spacious living room. In my headphones, pianists Valeria Szervanszky and Ronald Cavaye were playing some Maurice Ravel. Impressionists water me well. They turned me into a drainage system that’s finally working again. Rust were flushed away. Onto the iron, through my crumpled cloths, was my childhood unraveledContinue reading “Erma”

713MB. The size of my first Zoom meeting recording. It was the one with this Cali Guy Brian. During our entire talk, I can’t stop tracing back to my early days in this industry, when I forced “Angelo the coffee godfather” / my “George Clooney in Coffee” to tell me everything. He had a maskContinue reading “A Californian”

The moment I almost burst into tears when he was in bed with me. I knew, I could let go of this. This intricate romance that only manifest itself with the most energy-saving torch. I’ve prepared myself to leave it from day one. I carefully counted how many times we’ve met. How many times we’veContinue reading “It’s too late, I’m not making sense”

Monday, in my PJ and dim lights, I finally stepped one toe into the career that I know at some time I’ll spend the rest of my life working on —- angel investing. I listened to two well-dressed eloquent Russian classmates presenting their Chatbot project on Zoom. One score up. As I thought I hadContinue reading “The week after Birthday”

In my rooms, curtains are always drawn. For example, right now, 8:41pm in complete daylight, I kept my drawn curtains and switched on my lamp. The effort he spent drawing the curtains and the withdrawing the curtains, is very impressive for me. I’ve never learned to appreciate sunlight until maybe 2-3 years ago, after severalContinue reading “A room without a view”

I have a weird relationship with my motherland. She banned my religion, I chose to live somewhere else, but I love her, and love the people. And I make money, out of my love for them. Buddha Sis called to tell me what happened and assured me everything is fine. I don’t know how ShifuContinue reading “Red Flag Curse”

The tiny things I’ve understood about myself after the 2 months of lockdown: I still can’t stand too strong daylight. Like a vampire. Curtains should be properly closed during the day. Otherwise I feel dizzy and needs to head off bed every two hours. May is always the worst for me, because it’s not warmContinue reading “After Lockdown Flow”

Types of joy: If you measure by the number of people you are with. Happiness with a big group of people you don’t hate. Usually at a party or some kind of social event. With nice food, and drinks. Maybe a tiny cute dessert that melt your heart. Maybe some goodlooking guy smiled at youContinue reading “Happiness is a bitch”